The Pastor's Retreat Network

Dear God,

I’m sorry…

I’m sorry that I spend more time on my computer than I do talking to You.

I’m sorry that I come to You so often when I am broken, hurting, and lonely, and not before.

I’m sorry that You get my leftovers when what you deserve is my first fruits.

I’m sorry that I still doubt You even though I know you have never let me down.

I’m sorry I don’t look more like Your Son and instead I look so much like everyone else.

I’m sorry I still sin when I know good and well I have been freed from sin.

I’m sorry that I treat You warmly one minute and act distant the next.

I’m sorry that I don’t tell nearly enough people about You.

I’m sorry that I am often lazy in my faith.

I’m sorry for the times I am lukewarm.

But, I thank you…

Thank you Lord that you still listen to me even when I complain and grumble.

Thank you that when I offer you leftovers you offer me grace and compassion.

Thank you that I could never earn your love, because I know I would fail, but instead you give it so freely.

Thank you that even when I doubt You, You never doubt me.

Thank you that your love covers a multitude of sins.

Thank you for finding me, and rescuing me, and being with me always.

Thank you that when I lay my burdens before You, I am reminded that Your burden is easy and your yoke is light.

Thank you that you are a God who allows me to come to you with each piece of broken me, each bit of tarnished girl, and that You never shame me or guilt me for the choices I’ve made.

Thank you for your Son, who I want to be more like, and who you gave to me, for freedom’s sake.

Thank you that You aren’t finished me, not even close.

Thank you for bringing me gifts of tremendous blessing even though I am so undeserving.

Thank you that You are a good God.

Thank you.

Thank you.

I love you…

Sincerely,

Nicole

What would you apologize for? What fills your heart with gratitude?